Thursday 14 February 2019

AM I LIBERATED?

Much has been written on this topic, and it is an old topic now. Many women are liberated all around the globe, and many are on their way to being liberated. In India it is the urban population that is liberated. The rural population is still uneducated and very much male dominated.
Personally, I don't think I am a liberated woman. Though I live in a city and there are many career women all around me, I am economically dependent on my husband. I am well educated and I have a degree in Accountancy. I could have easily pursued a career. But I am also a Manic Depressive.
I was correctly diagnosed very late in my life, so my disease came in the way.
Though every commercial organization requires an accountant, and it is easy to get a job, I could only find work in small business enterprises. The bigger companies did not have any vacancy. So it was grueling work with very little pay. Moreover these places have no work culture. There is a lot of backbiting and unhealthy competition. I started suffering from depressions. That made the work twice as hard. Eventually I had to give up working.
But I could not just be a homemaker and take care of my son and husband. I had to do something else. I cleared an exam on creative writing in English. My results were very good and I started writing.
You may wonder how an accountant could turn into a novel writer. As an accountant I was a square peg in a round hole. I did not enjoy my work which made it difficult for me to do it. I had taken up accountancy thinking that it would be lucrative. Unfortunately it was not so.
I had a flair for writing but I had not taken this up, thinking that writing fiction would be risky. But I reverted to it when I found myself with nothing to do but be a good wife and mother.
I started enjoying my work. I have written two novels and a few short stories. But, and this is a big but, I have not yet started earning from my writing and I am still dependent on my husband. It is a big disadvantage as I have to make a lot of adjustments and compromises. I have to dance to my husband's tune. That is very frustrating.
So the question remains. Am I liberated? I am a modern woman with a modern upbringing. But I have no earnings of my own, which makes me feel shackled at times. So, what am I?   

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